“When an inner situation is not made conscious, it appears outside as fate.” – C. G. Jung

I have reached Week 7 of the Artist’s Way, and these next 2 weeks are about Rediscovering a Sense of Connection. The exercises are all focused on exploring your creative self, and cultivating a connection with your outer world. I think this, more then any week so far, lends itself to the possibility of synchronicity. I say this, because a pretty cool one has taken place already.

Here was today’s task

“Wear your favorite article of clothing for no special occasion.”

I have gotten into the habit of sporting a grungier look than I am used to as of late… I guess that’s what happens when you’re a full time student and mildly exhausted. With this in mind, I was excited when I pulled  a floral dress out of my closet this morning, straightened my frizzy locks, spent some time accentuating my eyes with a new eye-shadow I bought yesterday,  and stuck a bright pink flower just above my left ear. I felt pretty and, as I walked around the halls of my school, it felt good to feel like a girl again.

How bizarre is it that it was on this day (the first day in maybe 2 months that I have put any effort into my appearance while at school), that I was asked to audition for a commercial for a chocolate company. Part of the audition involved taking a bite out of a piece of chocolate and enjoying it for the camera… yum!

I would say that this is synchronicity at its finest… but I have to be honest, I was weirdly nervous. I could feel my face twitching with nervous energy as I tried to smile, and I left feeling slightly disappointed in myself. I think I did an okay job, but I know I could have done better. Where on earth did these nerves come from? I haven’t really auditioned in awhile, but despite my growth I felt as though my mind really took over in this situation. The second I was asked if I wanted to audition, I felt my heat beat pick up a little bit. I started to feel shaky, and although I tried to breathe through it, they just didn’t go away.

Despite this small failing, I still think that it was a success because even if I don’t get it – the experience taught me that I still have more work to do on my mind.

“The mind messes up more shots than the body.” – Tony Bolt

I certainly have enough training under my belt to make me more than capable of nailing a simple commercial audition, but today my mind messed up. That’s okay. I’m only going to take it as a fantastic learning experience, and move forward from here. Besides, who knows? Perhaps I did better than I think I did.