Things are moving fast. I’m having to face a lot of my fears at a rapid pace, and there’s a part of me that almost wants to resist the progress because it’s happening quicker than I’d expected. I keep getting calls for job interviews, and at the start of next week I’m going to find out if I got the job with Boston Pizza as a server. At the same time, I may be getting promoted to sales rep at my current job at the gym. So now I’m faced with a dilemma. I would make more as a server at Boston Pizza, but I find the job at the club more fulfilling and I am resistant to leave it. I’m afraid that might be a mistake, and yet I need the money and working two jobs would cut back on my study time for acting school – which I definitely don’t want to do. Another thing to consider is when it’s slow at the gym I have the opportunity to work on my blog or homework for school – I wouldn’t have that luxury at a restaurant. Having two jobs would just be way too complicated, so if I get the job at the restaurant I’m going to have some tough decisions to make. I would love your opinion on this dilemma.

 Meanwhile, I have just been given an opportunity to teach a spin class next week. I was mildly terrified when I received the e-mail asking me if I wanted to sub. My first impulse was “no! I’m not ready!! I don’t know what I’m doing. I need to train more. I need more practice.” Then I stopped, and took a step back to really look at myself. This is a pattern with me: always wanting more and more training, needing to over-prepare before embarking on anything. I spoke to one of my coaches at the school and told her the good news, also confiding in her how scared I was about taking this next step. She told me that she remembered her first class. She said she didn’t know what she was doing either, but do you know what? No one does. That’s how you learn. The first time you’ll work through the hiccups, and then the second time you’ll be even better, and the time after that you’ll be better still. One of the employees at my work also teaches a group fitness class. I asked him for some advice and he gave me some great nuggets. Mainly, he said, what you need to focus on are the people in your class. Pushing them to work harder, and giving them an excellent work-out is all that you really have to worry about at the end of the day. Teaching a fitness class, at its core, is a customer service position.  I was also worried about my body not being able to keep up. The guy at my work assured me that once you’re in teacher mode you’ll be so involved with the people in your class that you’ll forget about what you’re doing to your own body.  You’ll amaze yourself with what you can do with adrenaline coursing through your veins, and a strong sense of purpose regarding what you’re doing. When you teach a fitness class, it’s no longer about you and your work-out, it’s about others. Helping others is what it’s all about. I’m getting more and more excited the more I think about it.

 I am just about to break into a slightly higher wage bracket, and it’s a bit scary… but I’m ready. I’m so ready! Next step, finally submitting to agencies. I’ve got my hand in a few different cookie jars right now, don’t I?