Have you ever had a moment when you realized that the universe may be dragging you forward kicking and screaming. I’m sort of getting the impression that the universe is tired of my resistance. Maybe I should elaborate.
Yesterday I learned about some episodes of bullying taking place at my work place. I’m not going to delve too deeply into it, but I learned that a group of people were keeping a tally of every time 3 select employees did or said something stupid. I was not one of these 3 employees, but it still bothers me something like this even took place. Adding to this, my manager came to speak to myself and another employee on Saturday to tell us that she was unimpressed with our performance over the weekend. I’d be lying if I said that my performance wasn’t dwindling with every coming week, so she wasn’t completely off base here. When I first started working for the gym I was motivated and excited, but the negative energy (of being surrounded by employees who don’t want to be there), an insane turn-over rate (the club has been opened less than a year, and we have lost or fired over 20 employees in that time), and changes in management, have made me feel sort of apathetic. Nevertheless, Sunday I worked my butt off and reorganized the entire reception desk and even printed off a detailed list of everything that I did during the day. I guess this blast into action is a result of the perfectionist in me. Also not doing an excellent job at something sort of goes against my paradigms.
So I did all this, and when I came into work Monday afternoon I received no recognition for my hard work from either my manager or my supervisor. Maybe I don’t deserve it, but it would have been nice. I’ve gotten over that, and am going about my day today when I receive an e-mail from my club’s manager saying that she is cutting back my hours because “she can no longer rationalize having an extra receptionist on Friday’s.” Have I mentioned that I have been working this Friday shift at the gym for almost a year? There are only 2 other employees at the gym who have been there longer than I have. I apologize for the rantiness of this blog post, but I’m just very frustrated right now.
What’s good is that this frustration has caused me to realize that something needs to change. It’s time to move on. I got this job when my vibrations were at a level that was significantly lower than the one I’m at now. I had an excellent chat with my boyfriend today, about how I need to raise my self-worth or else I’m always going to get the same kinds of job. I started applying for new jobs today with one phrase in mind: apply for positions that both excite and scare you at the same time.
I’m always talking about how important it is to go outside of your comfort zone, and now I’m really doing it. Feels good. Feels empowering actually. I am working at a job that I no longer enjoy, and I have the power to leave.
I’m writing about this for two reasons. One, is to keep myself accountable for actually doing what I’ve told myself that I’m going to do, and two is to give anyone out there a kick in the butt like the one received today if you’re in a situation similar to mine. It’s time to put an end to the “waiting for it to get better” and to move on.
I know, I know!
It’s amazing how things happen sometimes. In 2011, I took a job and lasted only a month at it. It wasn’t right for me. I felt awful about leaving so soon. I felt like a quitter. But then I found something that was perfect for me. It’s the best job I’ve ever had and I would have never found it if I didn’t quit. I think things happen for a reason. This could be great for you!
Thank you for the encouragement Emily. I’m hearing so many stories about people who listened to their inner guidance system, like I am now, and were rewarded for it. I know I’m making the right decision in looking for another job. Now I just need to push resistance out of the way.
WTG, Miss Positivity Project. [I still love that concept]
Synchronicty? I don’t know, but I’m moving on with certain aspects of my life. Stepping way outside my comfort zone, and I’m excited. Taking control of my life and my future back.
My bestie, Sherry Isaac, sent me a Kelly Clarkson video you might find as empowering as I did. I’ll share the link, just in case…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HEValZuFYRU
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Go forth and conquer. I can’t wait to hear how things turn out for you, fellow traveler on the TAW path.
I think that’s synchronicity if I ever saw it before. Thank you for the video!!! I will let you know about everything that is coming up. “Go forth and conquer” – thank you for that.
I know a lot of people — A LOT — who said that a job going bad turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to them, career-wise. I understand completely; when a job is not working out for whatever reason, it is a signpost that points in a new direction.
Thank you Lisa. That’s really encouraging to hear! Right now I’m battling all sorts of resistance as I apply for jobs that are definitely far outside of my comfort zone. There was a moment where I thought, “well I could just apply for this serving job,” but I realize that it’s time to start moving up and stop moving sideways. I’m excited for what’s coming up next.
Good luck with your job hunt, I am sure the right one will come along for you! Love that you are listening to the messages in the world and taking action. Something else is out there and it will crop up in no time.
Thank you J.C. I actually just applied for a job yesterday that I’m really hopeful about. We’ll see what happens. The universe was almost screaming this message at me, it was difficult to ignore. Thank you for the encouragement.