Today I want to talk about avoidance. In a little bit of a weird way, I think that I have been avoiding success. I am the master of excuses. Give me an opportunity, and I will find a reason why it’s not possible for me. Acknowledgement is the first step, and now it’s time to change.

On Wednesday I was given an opportunity to do a spin class for free after contacting a gym about potentially becoming a group fitness class instructor. They were looking for instructors for spin, and they told me to come down, try the class, and tell them what I thought. Well, I did the class, and I just about died on that bike. 25 minutes in, I looked at the clock, and my legs shook with exhaustion. Sweat was poring down my nose and I wanted to throw up, but I pushed through the class until the very end. When it was over, I got off the bike with a bruised ego, and slightly shattered confidence. I was embarrassed. I had been doing so well with my P90X workouts (I’m on day 12 of P90X by the way, and kicking some butt), that I just assumed that I would be fine. My leg strength is clearly not what I thought it was. I was resistant to talk to the instructor after class, because I wasn’t sure what she was going to say. I even almost left the gym, but then a little voice inside my head told me to suck it up and not be a wimp. So, I walked over to her and told her that I was actually very interested in becoming a spin class instructor- regretfully I did add in an “I know I have a long way to go.” I’ve already slapped myself on the wrist for that one. Her response surprised me. “No” she said, “not at all. Teaching a spin class is easy.” She then recommended I check out some different spin classes, and watch the instructor’s techniques so that I can start to compile what I liked and create my own personal style of instruction. This woman who I had never met believed in me more than I did. While I believed that I was dying on that treadmill, she clearly saw something different. I sort of expected her to laugh at me when I told her my plans, but she did the complete opposite.

The woman who set up this free class told me to keep coming back, and when I feel confident to let her know and she’d put me on the sub list. The club plays $40.00 a class – I would literally be getting paid for working out. I have so many goals that I have been avoiding out of fear, and I am laying down the law now. I’m going to stop running away. The following are a list of my goals, and tomorrow I’m going to compile an action plan so that I can make these goals a reality.

Goals

1. I finally want to be represented as an actor, and I want to be auditioning professionally.
2. I want to be a group fitness Instructor.
3. I want to finish writing my short story “climbing in trees” and publish it as an e-book.
4. I want to get this blog up to 300 views a day.
5. I want to be making an average of $500 a week by the end of October.

I believe that these goals are completely reasonable. I realize that lately I have been getting somewhat bad at making promises and not keeping them. This weekend I will be going through this blog and making a list of all the challenges I didn’t complete, and creating an action plan to finally complete those exercises. The 21 days of gratitude was one that I sort of let fall, but I have since picked it up and am now on day 12. There are going to be some big changes happening with this blog, so stay tuned. It’s coming.